It's Me Again Margaret! :D

So I realize it has been a long time since I've been on and as much as I would like to say there's been a good reason for this, there just isn't. So I'm hoping you all will be sufficed with an "I'm sorry" and I will commit to do better.
CONFESSION TIME:
I not only skipped out on the blog this last week but the gym and my nutrition. As terrible as this may seem, I am choosing to see it as progress. In the past, I have always done really well my first week. I have been really good at following my diets with natzi pizazz, and become a regular gym rat (for 5 days at least). I usually lose anywhere between 5 and 8 pounds. Now the downfall, week 2. I suppose I should look at Biggest Loser as a prime example that week 2 sucks for everyone, but those rules don't apply to me! Some terrible curse always strikes at 12:01 on the start of week 2 that makes my OCD and therefore my stress kick into high gear! I very rarely lose any weight and by the end of the week my eyeballs are no longer just twitching from deprivation, they are bloodshot and vibrating! My kids have learned that if mom is dieting it's best to stay away towards the end of week 2 lest she recreate the scene from Carrie when the poo hits the fan at prom! This time is different though. Week 1 nutrition started out good (as in was great day 1) and then dropped off. I felt kinda sick on day 2 (but maybe that was just the baja smash burger I ate the previous night. . . . . ok, so maybe day 1 wasn't THAT stellar!). Day 3 was better than day 2 (wait, nope. I only recorded breakfast and morning snack on my food log. So that means I either forgot to record my amazing feats of willpower (not likely) or I ate such crap that I figured what's the point. I'm thinking it's number 2 since I didn't record anything else for the rest of the week). I did however lose 1 pound. I'm thinking that maybe getting some of the craziness done and over with in week 1, I will do better week 2 and avoid the curse! It's working so far! AND, I went to the gym this morning and was able to do 4 non-consecutive minutes jogging on the treadmill (although I'm totally going to have to figure something out with a liner or something because the dam leaked. The upside is I was wearing black and came right home afterward. The downside is that it was AFTER I got home that I realized it!). I am hoping to continue on my path although I expect to have "slip-ups". I have never looked at a diet or lifestyle change and said to myself "I will never eat sugar again, drink soda again, eat pasta again" and so on and so forth. I love those things and simply want to learn how to eat them in moderation. That means eating them sometimes without calling it a slip up. As long as I'm seeing things balance out a little more each week, I think I'll be happy with that.
I'm really sorry for the rant. It's more for me than anyone else. I just really want this time to be different. Thanks for supporting my madness! :)
Love, Candi